ignorance is bliss.

In english class today my teacher bought up an interesting point. She said that when an action is done, words are spoken, thoughts carried people don't this about the meaning of them. She gave us five(5) questions actually they are more statements than question but i digress: 1.) What it means. 2.)How it means. 3.)Why it means. 4.)To whom it means. 5.)The significance of the meaning. So as I was sitting in class I thought about how to go about answering those questions/statements. She then gave us an example, whether the lynching for negroes and/or coloreds. Some famous man (whom I can't remember at the moment) inquired if looked upon differently could it be something that brings us closer to GOD. She had us think about it, wasn't Jesus cast as an outcast? Wasn't he tortured for being different? Wasn't he hung on a crossed to be ridiculed by the on looker view the sight for entertainment? Yes to all. We need to question the stories, the lies told over the years, the everything and think of the significance to each of us personally.

But in all that do we want to question what has been told to us? Passed down from generation to generation? Usually the answer is no. Who wants to worry themselves with being an intellectual thinker? I'll step up now. I'll take that beef. Not to say I haven't always second guessed the "horse shit" fed to me, but I am trying to be more aware and inquisitive. Ask more than the surface questions, not just accept the immediate, media given, watered down, politically correct answers. How about you? Ready to step up for this challenge? Probably not because ignorance is bliss.

In regards to my life now. Why must we as a generation put up a front? To seem cooler? To seem likable? To gain what? Ever so tired am I seeing lies on top of lies on top of lies. Technology is the devil and I truly believe that. But just like most I am addicted to it, although I don't abuse it by "frontin". I am Saadia day in and day out. Ignorance is bliss? well, Knowledge can be hell. To know how to be nosey on the internet is the worst. Reading other people's comments, etc. is crazy and an obvious invasion of privacy. So why is it so hard to pry away from it?

My day opened my eyes to new things and they won't be closing anytime soon.

kinda...

Don't you kinda wish that you could be more personal? You kinda wish that you didn't have to rely on technology to release feelings. I wanna have to have the courage to say it out loud although I'd much rather text. I know i just contradicted myself. But my friend Dana ALWAYS takes my thoughts from my head and puts it down first (by the way she is a genius).

Technology is kinda ruining our way of life. We have ungrudgingly given away our sense of privacy, by using these "friend" sites. We use them to keep in touch with old friends, stay up to date with the present ones, and look for new ones. We then place unnecessariness on our pages to make us seem friendly and approachable by the on lookers. So some tend to portray a certain image of being cooler, smarter, or a better person when really they are a nobody pretending.

I kinda want everything to go back to how it used to be. Starting out as innocent fun. Not really having to worry about the phonies, the babies, the bullshit. i want it to be pure again. Us to be pure again....

bamboozled.

ever seen the movie bamboozled? another spike lee joint. and if you haven't seen it please watch it because it touches on things that nobody has really captured in a way where the youth will watch it.

the topic is minstrel shows and the length a "nigga" will go to make a dollar. making fun at the hardship that our people had to overcome to get a chance to be on t.v, movies, plays, etc. it is 2007 and to some degree i believe that we are still a modern day minstrel show, just with out the black face. do we not sing and dance for the white man's dollar? if you were offered $1 million right now to perform black face and sing in front of a white audience would you not?

did you know that that we were called coons? there is a coon's automotive. i can't see myself EVER taking a car from them much less buying one. we were made fun of, disrespected, abused, killed, no scratched that murdered, and now we think that we have evolved. we haven't we still niggas in people's eyes. yes times have changed but the raising of children in some house hold hasn't.

i feel for the generation after us. we have a people have to learn about our past to better the future. people i fear that if we aren't careful we can be a modern day minstrel show. maybe no black face but something along the lines of that metaphorically. i don't want to sound like a conspiracy person blaming the "man" for everything because i do believe most unfair treatment we bring on ourselves, only to get mad when it becomes an inconvenience or we feel embarrassed in front of another race.

please lets us try to up lift and empower and instead of complaining about it do something about it. bring to the attention of the mass media. show your creative side make an independent film, make a graphic design. do something. it all starts with an example.

yo.

new years bring new lies. everyone makes a new year's resolution and forgets about in a month or less. the funny thing is, i made one too. i wrote it down, made a video recording, and everything. but the trip part is that i haven't told anyone, and i don't plan to. why would i? aren't you supposed to make your resolution come true? i don't want help so i'm going to try for myself.
new years bring new attitudes. people change or claim they are changing. they say "it's '08 blah blah blah..." like they changed for real. if your a bitch your a bitch. if you are a good friend then you are a good friend. people don't change because the year changes. i think people just get more comfortable with letting their true colors come out. although that isn't always a bad thing more times then not people start to show the worst.
new years bring new opportunities. new niggas new everything. am i ready for the "newness"?