time.

"time will tell,,," they say. what am i waiting for this time? "patience is a virture..." they say. i don't have the luxury of possessing this quality. "tomorrow isn't promised, live each day like it's your last..." they say. but what about the first two sayings? don't they present a problem if you want to live like the last one?

what people choose to live their life by strictly depends on where they are in their lives. recently people have passed and the mourners would like to say live each day like it's your last but do they mean it? all the time in the world can't get you back the time lost. but what is there worth waiting for? most likely the answer that rolls off so many people's lips is love. i love someone and i have a strong like for some one. i also am falling out of love, or maybe that thin line between love and hate is slowly being crossed. i don't want to waste time hating who i love. that takes energy and time that isn't promised.

if i were to leave this earth tonight would people be happy with the way things are right now? i have tried to keep all loose ends with people to either get restiched or be cut off. my birthday is next week on the 13th, and i realized that i'm not happy. i'm about to be 18 and it should mark a turning point into adulthood but i'm not happy. i don't have anymore time to be a kid. i don't have any time to wait around for love because reality has been waiting around for me....