fallin'.

I can't catch myself from falling into an existence that I don't quite understand. Normalcy. I don't want to be that normal college kid stuck doing what politically correct or what society has pegged as how college kids should be viewed. I wanna dance outside the box on the jagged edges of danger. I wanna run with the wolves that run by themselves. My boss told me to see the world but how? Be free-spirited, but how? Live free && love hard, but how?

I can't just one day say I when in Rome && actually be in Rome. But why can't I? Money. I want to do it all, love hard && long (no nasty...lol), see the world, gain fame, open up a respectable business, have kids, move to London, vacay in Cabo. What's stopping the movement? Money. My girl Lil' Kim said it the best "Money, Power, Respect what you need in life/You'll see the light/It's the key to life." I want the key. But what's the key (&& the door for that matter) without getting that one to share it with? Can't I just fall into the lap of luxury with the one who makes me smile when I don't want to? I'm trying to build up something strong with someone but I'm scared. Scared that Imma love too hard and get let down.

All these thoughts are falling out of my head into my Mac. Where to channel them? Who to talk to? What should I do? I'm just gonna keep falling and see where that leads.